Tonight after a pretty blah day of just trying to keep up with the house and kids plus a big bedtime blow-up with my daughter, I asked my husband if my life was fulfilling. Of course he told me I needed to decide that for myself. I told him that I felt like life was moving on without me.
Then...I met Abby on the TV show "The Biggest Loser." She lost her husband, daughter and baby boy in a car accident. After hearing her story, I sobbed. I realized how much I love my family and how important they are to me.
So even though day-to-day life isn't terribly interesting and I feel like I'm just keeping my head above water, I'm doing it because I love them.
How has motherhood been treating you lately?
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Sometimes I, too, wonder if I'm ever accomplishing anything after a day of getting only one chore half-way done, running around town on errands, and the boy dumping rice all over the already dirty kitchen floor. Hubby comes home and insinuates (probably in my mind only) that I haven't done very much that day and it puts me in a mean mood all night. I yell and pout.
Then a tree falls through my boy's window at midnight and the sound makes me think we're being robbed. I'm suddenly thankful again for hubby's protection and the boy's miraculous safety.
And I hold the power to influence these people I love so much. I need to remember that MY choice of my mood affects the quality of THEIR lives. And if I can make that better, that's a big accomplishment.
Thanks for the posts.
Chant started student clinic in September and life has been insane! He is only home before the kids go to bed 2 nights a week. It has been hard and i totally get feeling like all you do is keep your head above water. But I have really made an effort to spend time playing with my kids and when I do that I find that the day goes more smoothly. It is easy to just let them go off and play by themselves all day, especially the girls, but I need them just as much as they need me.
Hang in there, things will get better. And you are raising Heavenly Father's children. Nothing is more important than that!
Oh, I don't think there is a mother in the world that doesn't feel that way! Our jobs never end! However, no thrills, hot bodies, freedom, etc. will ever make us feel as fulfilled as consistent hard work and righteous living. My mother has been the greatest influence of my life. I have to remember that everyday when I look at my son. God made us to be mothers, because he knows that this is what humbles us enough to come back to him. He loves his girls!
Oh, and I LOVE Abby from the Biggest Loser. She has CHANGED my whole outlook on life! You're wonderful Amy!
Oh my goodness, did you watch last nights episode? I just sobbed, sobbed and sobbed some more. Abby is amazing.
I've totally been having a crappy week, feeling impatient, inadequate and grumpy as a mom. Weeks like that are so hard, but it's good for us to have a "humbling" experience so that we can pick ourselves up, brush ourselves off and start over the next day. Our kids love us no matter what and forget our shortcomings so quickly.
Yeah, Abby's story was pretty helpful to my own blah blah days... having a lot more than I'd like of those lately. And just the laughs and smiles I get from my little girl keep me going. (As I try to ignore the whines).
Well it sure is good to be reminded that there are a lot of us that find ourselves in this same situation of "blahs", if you will, and that it's not so bad and sometimes, we just need to keep that long-term, eternal perspective. I know deep down, even on my worst days when I really feel disgusted at how disgusting my kitchen floor is, how you can't see our living room rug for all the toys covering it, I wouldn't trade it in for anything. Our kids grow up and change so fast and we are really blessed to be able to be there for it. Think of this as a blessing, because that's what it is!
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